"'Friend' is such a complicated word. It can mean anything from acquaintance to sibling. They're the people you know you can count on no matter what you've done. They love you for who you are - inside and out. They know everything about you - all of your faults, dark secrets, your deepest desires, and your most admirable traits. When separated, they're all you can think about. Anyone else you know feels like they know them because they're all you can talk about. You're so comfortable when you're with them that, sometimes, it's the only time you can fall asleep. They've redefined the way you live your life - you can't remember how it used to be because you could swear you never really lived before them. People ask what you've been up to since you last met and you can only laugh as you remember the latest harebrained adventure. Tears flood your eyes when you realize that they're the only ones that really understand you. And you know, without a doubt, that they aren't going anywhere. You know that, unlike everyone else in your life, they will never order you away because you complete them as much as they complete you. They're the people you go to when the world has become too complicated, because with them everything is simple. You have your own dialect that only they understand - even if every word is English. They look into your eyes and see what no one else can see. They know when you need a ray of sunshine or how to hold you as the lightning strikes. They're the only ones who know how to pick up the pieces when your world has crumbled. The pain they inflict - though more exquisite than any you'll ever feel - is beautiful because it only brings you closer. When you find someone that fulfills this definition don't ever let them go, because people like these are few and far between."
The question is, how to you keep from losing them. This little family is just that - a family. It would be naive to expect us to be all fine and dandy all the time. No family in the history of this entire world can say that. No two people can - let alone the four of us. It is one of the only things you can count on as a human being. Now, I am, in no way, implying that you should be expecting every little detail to be a problem. You've got to live your life like every day is your last, how else do you expect to get anything done? It is just something you can't let throw you off, or the shock of it will take you over.
I don't need to go into detail about said problems. No one really needs to know - heck, I'm not sure that the four of us have the same story for all present issues. The only thing I'm trying to say is what ever stupid decisions we have or haven't made, how ever justified we felt, whatever we've said and/or done - of all of the people in the world there is no one more important than your family. Things happen. Period. Your life, thoughts, actions, relationships, EVERY LITTLE DETAIL is up to you. You can't let others dictate that for you. People - myself and everyone I love included in this - ARE STUPID. Miscommunications lead to actions which lead to hurt feelings which lead to fights that destroy people.
I am tired of implications ruining everything that makes my life worth living. I am actually going to stand back and let this one take its course, hereby relinquishing my title as the 'know-it-all-problem-solver.' Any questions asked of me will be answered in pure honesty - it is up to you to ask the questions and take my answers. I'll take the pain I know expressions might cause because it will only bring us closer. Balance won't be found unless you make a physical effort to find it. I'm not angry - just opinionated. The three people I share this blog with fulfil my definition of friend better than I think they know - I just hope they can say the same for me.
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